Free Bird...

There i see that bird,rising again,
collecting my dreams,fighting for my gain.
For my happiness or my gloom?
will those saplings die or would they be left to bloom?
Its head held high,innocence personified,
wonder would it be the same,once it died.
The beautiful bird,flawless makes a flight,twists and turns a part of the game,
Will sacrifice soon, some dreams subdued,with none to blame..
But the flight has already begun,
leaving attempts to curb it undone.
Let it be,let it fly to its last breath,
let it pave the way,to its freedom or death...

Something!

Its time i should get back on the reflections bubbling within me to put up something worth capturing in words.Emotion,creates nuisance everytime it comes uncalled for,however strong your controls are, and ends up washing the so very fabricated shore of the planned actions in a go.And,the waves of hope and excitement do carry along with them fears and some assurances that keep you going when you least expect the waters to be stormy.
Such is life,nothing is constant.A smile,a frown,fears,happiness,dreams,nightmares,neither of them.But,what is persistent is you and me.You,me and those who invoke,subdue or regenerate emotion,in myriad forms and complicate life every now and then.After all,who would have cared to be happy/sad if the smiles would have been free..:-)

A dried leaf!!

Saw a dried leaf lying lifeless,deep yellow and just on verge of being trampled by careless feet,while on a daily walk in my beautiful surroundings.Wondered what des this leaf mean to me?Is this leaf at the end of its life/or reborn?Was it the sacrifice in wake of some other leaf trying to make itself stable on the helpless tree?Or Was it a way to show that there are limits which one can never cross however hard one may try?? Maybe Yes,maybe not..I wonder whether this leaf had had its takes in life or just fell out fighting to make its place?Or was it its way of showing that to be reborn,you have to shed your older selves,however hard it might be.Yellow was never fresh,but too much of green would hurt one day.Whats Brightness without palour? Its like facing sunlight straight on the face without shades.You get hurt due to extremes...Found two pine leaves lying near the leaf,young,fresh and full of life,just broken free from tree:)
Perspective,must say,is big thing in life!!!
P.S.:-Feeling short of words!! Duh,i need to brush up and write often!! :-(

A typical mondayyy.. :(

A typical monday at office- work is calling time and again and am unable to make up my mind to start with another five days of working repeatedly over same things,worrying about every single data field and trying to understand and explore new logics and what not..Errghh...why do they make mondays working.. :( Anyways, mondays seem empty to me but todays a strange feeling.Something am unable to figure out.Want to unconnect,go into recluse and stop being subdued.There is a strange wish occupying me right now-the wish to be rebellious,to be breaking rules,to be going down the hill rather than upside,to be not bothered by peer pressure,to be not pretending the smiles for a while,to be crying for the stars above,to be not waiting for some miracles,to be unfazed by rememberances,to be with my parents,to be pampering my brothers,to be pampered,to be sleeping till tommorow..Many silly wishes,basically a deviation from the disciplined life that am leading,or the assumption,watsoever.But nothing has changed,though i have blinked my eyes so many times..:-)
Things remain,its just that we need to adapt,change,and reaffirm our faiths in every new endeavour.Monday,here i come. :)
Lets start work.. :-\

Things that make u smile...!

One of my takeaways from "The secret,I loved the idea,though nothing that new about it.Note down 10 things that make you happy/smile for moment or moments,and make sure you keep them handy in all times when you feel depressed,or at loss of esteem and spirits.Bring them down to 3/4 ,be honest as the things that you choose become your most sought after goals,in your search for happiness.So,when you are there with 3 things that make you most happy,bravo,you've figured out what your life is worth of,and what you deserve to and should strive to shell out of life,to make it a life well earned.
I would not miss the chance here to point out the ones that make me smile and come back from gloom at times:
1)Kids and babies- the silent ones though,lol...i just love the innocence in their eyes, their charming smiles,so pure and poise,and the way they pour affection and love in you and make your life beautiful.
2)Beauty of nature-The landscapes- the hills,sea and especially its farthest point makes me wonder whats more to it and how far can i see beyond what i am really looking at,an odd cottage with greenery all around,wouldnt it be the most bful place to stay in,and the highway with hills on my way office ,with chilly breeze giving an absolute wonder effect,is what i look forward to everyday in my journey to office on rainy mornings.
3)Rains- the water droplets on a car after rain has gone for a nap..:-) or the puddles,though dirty,still are so much of life,arent they? and looking up at the droplets in light of the street lamp,when those striking bullets of water seem so beautiful,falling on your face and making you wet,and music in your ears,adding to the wow factor..:-)
4)Making others smile- cracking jokes and wishing and complimenting others has been a hobby and makes me feel free,full of life and beautiful.Seeing a group laughing,smiling and enjoying makes me feel life!
5)Music/Dancing-needs no explanation.Just makes me feel out of world..:-)
6)Thoughts-Many thoughts,which include dreams,thinking about immediate crushes..:-),those butterflies in stomach once you get noticed by somebody whom u like is a strange and kiddish feeling..:-)
7)Travelling-Alone makes me dig into beauty of all around,makes me observe and notice people.makes me think a lot and analyze!
8)Walks-Walking alone in a drizzle,or on a breezy evening/night,with the breeze sweeping off your face,every while and then,the music of your choice making you dance,the random thoughts and rememberances making you happy or sad,is so mesmerizing..
9)Writing-is more a passion than a thing which makes me smile..
10) talking/gossiping with friends ,doing mischiefs and doing weird things makes me feel good at times..

Figuring out the best 4 will be tough,though walks will be a sure shot among them.
So,when is your turn to write about yourself and reveal the secret to your and muy happiness..

Dawn or dusk?

Sometimes it happens that you feel so happy a moment and a moment later,however hard you try,some random thoughts clutter your mind and you feel worse than you ever had since ages.Somehow,you start feeling your under confident,worthless and pessimistic side taking a toll on the half lit lamp of hope you carry with you all the time.Your heart gets shorter thinking all those things which you shouldnt- the depressing things which make you feel you are unwanted,not liked,not loved/uncared for and just another creature who will fade away one day without ever making a mark on anybody's life around you.You stop feeling like the son/daughter of a proud parent,you stop feeling that love ever exists,the trust on relations breaks for those moments,and many thoughts later, a thought saying "who cares? or how does it matter ?"prevails.Those times really give you a different edge to life,helping you explore the other perspective,making you more observant and see life and realities unmasked for a change.Every relation,every companionship and all things near and dear seem like some obligations that you follow as a matter of duty.And you keep wondering what where and whether pure love exists? Pure love,where its not about giving and taking,where silence speaks louder than words,where care and concern weigh much more over some confessions,true or fake,where a look says it all,where you end up feeling worse even with the tiniest misunderstandings,and where it doesnt matter,where and who you are to the one who cares.Love of parents,siblings,partner,a friend,mentor,or a stranger passing by? Cant be categorised.But the one you remember at such times or the one who makes you smile and brings you back from the depression steals the show.

Reveries :)

You sit there,smiling at me and everybody else around,
but those nods and a look,and my heart somehow listens to a distant sound.
A sound,which comes from somewhere else,but am mistaken to be thinking its you,
who has brightened those dull days, the sun that has come out somewhere out of the blue.
I am at my best and shining bright,
with no one to blame later for my plight.
I swim in happiness and excitement of a reverie,
while you keep sinking in the silence and poise sounding a but eerie.
Something really is happening, or its my imagination speaking aloud,
Is it the rains or the change in events that are banging in my head so loud.
Ofcourse,it cant be you, you have been a constant all along,
its my stupid heart who had been singing a waste song,
the lyrics of which will remain unsung,
and will be lost to some sobs,
or trampled under footsteps of indifference,
and may later become some instances of repentance,
but what will be left is a hazy sustenance,
of those smiles,and nods.

I sit there,smiling at you and everybody else around,
and there is laughter and no other sound.