And back again! :)

Just when you think life has become stagnant and its only you who has not been moving since a long time,you dont realise that you have been making most of the moves,which go unnoticed.Not that all of them are in your favour,but you change,emerge,put a step forward,limp back 4 steps,but you still keep moving.Look back and i see wonderful memories of times which will never come back.Blink,and i see the things around.Peace,but something is amiss.Yet some compensation.Or is it? I wonder.I feel if whatever i do,whatever i say and whatever i assume,plan and put into action,is it what i really want or am i still holding on to time?Are the diversions in the plan,appropriate?Am i still driven by the vision that has led me to places or is it that my vision is missing some spots,one of which could be the lights that will light the space and the world around me.I wonder.I think,but not much. And i feel,dream,smile while i tuck those dreams somewhere near my heart,every dream,longed for,things asked for,prayed for,and thought over and over for.Well,when those dreams materialise is something which i don't fret about,now.Because,they change often and when they do, there is no point pondering over them if you know that they are gonna be wiped off your memory soon.
Such is life.Things happen,sometimes for reasons,many times for no reason,of which you find reasons somehow.You react,smile,fret,cry or laugh it out but you have to live with it.

The Sky,does it matter if its october one!!!

Just ended up watching a wonderful movie,October Sky.As i listen to Atif aslam's new track and write this up, i am feeling so pepped up and great to be waking up late and watching the movie i mentioned.Super work.Great direction,characters well played,Homer,John Hickam and the Rocket Guys. A must for those who take the odd path and have a tendency to get defeated by odds.Homer hickam epitomises a man of conviction,perseverence,determination,wit and grit.How the Rocket guys manage to design a rocket by endless attempts on stretch of barren land,far from Coal city,and end up standing different.Wow!! My takeaways,if you cant get it,you got to beat it!!Success doesnt come dear.Decisions falter.Faith stumbles.Circumstances cheat.But what stands apart is the will power,the determination,the voice inside that you will get it,one day and that day is what you will have to form out of your conviction,hard work and belief.And somewhere it has motivated me,to believe,stand and walk proud because it doesnt matter if you really get it or not,that comes really later.What precludes is the belief,will power and the efforts.I will put efforts,dreaming that i will make it big one day.Yes,i know i will. But i have to keep my eyes open,wide open.Even if the world forces me to move my goal out of sight,even if the winds blow too hard and direct my goal somewhere else,but i shall find it whatever may happen.Because i am made to try,to fall and rise till one day,the velocity of my efforts overcomes the gravity of the roadblocks and help me escape with an escape velocity and i will orbit around the world of my dreams.Wow, i am already writing in terms of space.Among other things,I know am gonna write,write a lot.And i will,like now.
Thanks October Sky.You really made a difference, atleast to the way i am thinking right now,at the moment.And i love the way i am feeling at this moment. :-)

Miracles!!

How strange it is that "NO News"becomes the hottest buzz just in a span of some years!Guess what,miracles.Yes,am talking of relationships.Was just going through my Facebook account and was wondering that so many of my college seniors and my collegemates married each other,who surprisingly didnt know much about each other,during those hay days.Wonderful and great news kept pouring in,thanks to facebook,:-).Networking or maybe same location of work,but isnt it so beautiful that those people crossed roads time and again to be soulmates one day?I am left in awe at this strange work of the almighty,or you can say the circumstances,destiny or whatever name you want it to fit in.And love happens,and i think two birds who have known each other in college times when pretence was at its minimum,there cant be better choice for them than being together.I feel so happy whenever i see such things happening and it feels great to be knowing both the sides :-).Well love just happens,or you can say at times,you make it happen.!! :-)

Going on!!

What does it take to settle whats going on inside you??Assurances,lot of them.Thinking,it never stops.A shoulder to cry,rare.Sympathies,who cares about them.Someone who understands,probably.Or reconciliations,they are in most of the times the only choices you have and you need to make,however hard you try to run away.And one fine day,you give up on what you have been fighting for, making compromises.Compromises that change the course what you had planned for yourself,just when you had thought that after struggles,you are being directed to what you have always dreamt of,and you are left feeling,lost,confused and devastated.Still,you carry yourself together again and take up the challenge.But i always wonder,defeats bring strength but what else do they bring? Do they deter you from dreaming big? No,but they certainly put filters to your dreams.You dream realistic dreams,practical ones,where you know you have to be accepting obstacles,however tired you feel,you have to keep going on.Going on,with vision but no expectation,till you find happiness in whatever that comes your way.'Happiness doesn't mean everything is perfect,it means you have decided to look beyond imperfections'.I have always loved this quote and i have been trying since ages to implement it.I fail at times,sometimes,i live upto it.I experience extremes of emotions at times like a small child,who wants the world and whimpers when he doesn't have it though he knows that its impossible,and smiles the next moment,as if nothing happened.Beacuse Life goes on.Without anybody realising when you shed tears or when you smiled your best,when you were in sorrow or when you celebrated your biggest achivement.When you were experiencing a turmoil or when you discovered 'tranquility'.When you felt bad at that smallest remark or when someone's compliment made your day.Nobody cares.Life still goes on.And you have to keep moving,no matter what...

Nothing but totally Strange!!!

Strange is the word which can describe what i am feeling right now!! Though what all is running in my mind is utter truth,but its just that the realisation and acknowledgement of it is making me think.Think whats there to this life we all live. Pretence ,money relationships ,truths,lies, love, hate,competition,fear and so many things that we thrive on,leading us to no purpose but a mean survival.And yet everyone of us is special.In their own ways.Was watching the movie Thank you sometime back,an all good movie with a very wise mesage. :-) But what struck me was the thought that it is so true that despite being aware of our precious most possessions and the people who make our world better anytime,we look for answers to our questions outside.Taken for granted,is what we make of those people and those things which keep our life moving even when everything and everybody else stop.But shouldnt you cherish such people and such memories which make you wipe your tears and feel protected,cared for and needed in times when this world seems to be a weird place.When in sorrow or in anguish,just remember the expressions,faces and the words which soothe you and bring you back to your smiles.And you will never forget those people,even if you are never in touch.I was just wondering about a sea of changes i have seen in the past year,not with me but also with people around me,connected,unconnected.Some changes make me feel happy,some jealous to be frank,some make me feel better,most make me feel nothing.But what has remained same is some people who have made me understand life at every step,some situations that have made me stronger every day,some tough times that have made me smile all along and ofcourse my belief.Strange is life,you grow upon your thoughts and vision by every moment,till a time comes when some of the biggest surprises fade away with a slight smile.Life is such a strange thing!!!

Before the sunrise!!

Its 3 am and am having a whale of time.Just done with "before the sunrise" .Vacation at home means idling around and having to do whatever i want to,being weird,rather being my own in whatever i wish to do,apart from the other maniac IT life that we all live.Amazing movie,must say.Loved every bit of it.Though the costumes were mundane,but the movie was so full of beautiful things.Love,oh i would want love to be like that.A freedom of expression,thoughts and yet that subtle "knowing" yet not asking.Especially liked the enactment at : 1) record playing booth when both the guy and the girl(Ok,the movie is about a french girl and an American guy,who accidentally meet in a train and decide to roam around vienna for a night,at random just when they know that there is some connection between them!) glance at each other in turns,and shy away just when they see the other one looking!1 :-) 2) At the restaurant where they act as if they are calling their friends and talk 2 each other,rather confess what they have liked about each other entire day.The thing which struck me and that is so true also,is that the subjects were so frank in talking about their dreams,fears and many other truths but they couldnt discuss that they liked each other so much,with ease.Guess, a fear as the girl confessed later,or maybe the typical "men first" feeling,or maybe the "is it the one??" syndrome in guy's mind,but whatever,the movie truly depicted what goes on in those two minds,when you meet someone really interesting,and are in the process of knowing and liking each other.Well,too many cooks spoil the broth and too many words too?? :-) Thats the reason they discovered love gradually.All those beautiful conversations they had,left me feeling could love be so free,so beautiful and so interesting? Where you just talk yourself out,anything except whats expected out of you to speak? Could you be discussing all what you are interested in rather than the same set of questions which remind you of your identity,your work or all what you do in everyday life? Isn't telling things which you value,adore or believe,things which have made a mark in your soul,your fears,desires,confessions a much more better way to introduce yourself when you meet for the first time?Love those philosophical and "soul searching" questions which make me feel out of this world,which make me think ahead of numbers,statistics,which make me hear sounds much different than those of a music player playing nearby,or look ahead of the hustle bustle while am sipping a coffee at some crowded place,or make me stare at a person or a thing and think something else ,so abstract yet so beautiful,or make me daydream and smile when what i pretend outside is so much different,or that feeling of butterflies in my stomach while am having a tough time trying to be serious apparently.Beautiful,isnt it? But you gotta have someone to understand all that.Someone of the same vision,looking in the same direction,that same sunrise,which you see that late evening,when the sun is supposedly bound to set.:-)
Well,of the movie,a perfect one to make you feel good,and make you feel in love for the time it plays. Liked some lines which i noted,to make a memory of them:
1)When the guy says that love is so selfish , the girl replies in turn,"But everything that we do in this world is about being loved or more than that!!"
So true!
2)When they are having this discussion ,she narrates a story about a lonely old guy who has been running around his career all life and she says"you know if one day god comes,he would not be in you,me but in the little space between us.If there is any kind of magic in this world,it
must be in attempt of understanding someone sharing something!!"

Loved this one,really!!I know that many conversations i had with so many people which might never be revisited,what shall remain of them always is " the attempt!!"
3)The guy is narrating some lines of a poem :"The years shall run like rabbits!!"

A worth watch..!!
:-)

The year and a half!! :-)

Nothing specific that i should write,yet i am getting lots of things on my mind, which are leaving me in a dilemma.The feeling of leaving behind,zillions of memories has already taken its place.Come nostalgia and moments that can be counted on fingers.Lots of places.People,wonderful and so good.Memories,galore, almost good,some bitter but the good ones overshadowing the former.Work,satisfying.Some experiences,"who cares",others "to be remembered ".:-) Smiles,tugged loads of them in my memories :-) Gym workouts,fun and happening at times. :-) Cycling-one of the best times, instilling that "free bird" feeling in me at times,on early mornings,dark,semi dark,bright and windy.Walks- the "my time".Meeting people- learnings(though the learnings are transient :-)) and yes,a belief,that gets stronger everytime.Friends- cant count, too many to leave behind. :-( Conversations at workplace-Cherished always.Treks- Best part,made me love adventure sports and made me discover the passion in me which i never knew,exists- that risk taking and the nature lover in me.Every trek has been so enriching and the gang, they just rock! :)Guitar- A different experience in itself!!Hurdles-who cares, they always remain.:-) Events- The years have been too eventful must say.Dance- Loved every part of it! :-) Moments with room mates-Unforgettable and cherished always,had the best times here!Lessons- Professional and personal,many but not implemented yet. :-) Confidence-Boost!Weekend masti-Gonna miss it big time! Trips and friends- To be missed big time!Shopping - :-) Non stop talking-Still Best at it!!

In all, i cherish the time i spent here and every minute memory is intact.Happy about it! So,its time i say adieu to the place and make way for new place, and mark an end to a long long journey and turn paths now.. :-) Hoping for the best!