So many emotions right now. However much i talk and discuss about this recent virus pandemic,i cannot get over the magnitude of iis spread and impact on the world. Thought words and my blog could come to my rescue as always in clearing my head for a while .While i am not much of a prayer but what's happening to the world makes me pray -for people to survive this, for my family, friends and those people who i read about in the social media.
What did we do that few weeks back, those cold,snowy,mundane,busy days of juggling work, kids classes and life again, turned into warm, breezy, mundane,vain days of wai ting it out and encountering second hand pain on reading accounts of people suffering?
Two weeks back, i was up and about everywhere-stores,work,classes, friends place and all of a sudden, am everywhere- through my thoughts, watching videos of the people around the world, fighting the same thing, seeing beauty in small things and standing together in their own ways.
What did we do that it has come to creating distances to be safe? That if you dont self isolate, you could be taking one/more lives?
What did we do that going to public places scared us more than anything? Believe me last week i went for grocery shopping and i swear to god i have never been so scared my entire life.
What did we do that it has come to a war against nature ,our soldiers being the doctors, nurses, grocery workers ( thanks to them we still have food on our tables) and almost everyone who is working right now amidst lockdown to make this world a better place as many many of us suffer somewhere- only to go without a goodbye?
What did we do to overwhelm and highly burden those who took an oath to reduce our suffering- that all i see is doctors admitting to be scared, exhausted tired and almost giving up?
Why did some of us do to deserve such a cruel end - no goodbye,no physical touch, without friends and families besides us?
What did we do to make mother nature this angry on us? Or is it so? Was it past due?
If not why now?
I keep thinking over and over that nature cannot be this brutal.
Is it so ? If not, from where did this fate meet us all?
When will be our 'before' life be back? Is this the new normal? If yes, this new normal is going to be full of bruised and lonely hearts, fearful minds, hungry stomachs, testing times and cold days without the warmth of touch and physical proximity.
Am scared of this new normal more than the virus itself.
Am scared of losing more people, in my city my state, my world.
Am scared of having so many hearts break, so many families disrupted and so many lives lost.
Am scared of people losing jobs.
But ..
I am happy to see people united virtually in these times.
I am happy to see our leaders taking critical,record breaking steps to save us all..
I am happy to see people following orders and helping flatten the curve.
I am happy to see life turning normal in China
I am happy to spend time with my family.
I am happy and proud of our doctors and nurses
I am proud of the strength i see in everyone who is staying home and staying positive
I am proud to see so many people helping others in these tough times....
What are you scared of and happy about in these unprecedented times?
