A life well earned!!!

Anand(1971) is a wonder movie that still moves me from inside whenever i watch it.Just watched the later part of it which left me feeling awed and perturbed.Superb acting by rajesh khanna.Vivid characters,beautiful and simple dialogue delivery,especially the "life" in anand's chracter overshadowing the dullness of the role bhaskar(amitabh) is supoosed to play.I love the ending note of movie where the reel with the golden dialogues"Babu Moshaai,ye zindagi bhi ek khel hai aur hum sab rangmanch ki kathputlian hai,kisi ka ana aur jana koi nai bata sakta,ha ha ha" plays just after anand leaves the world with the last word being "babu moshai".In these words,lie the summary of lives of each of us,somewhere.Whatever happens,doesnt happen or waits to happen in our lives, is not all decided by us,its just that wherever and whatever we see,do or experience is a part of the game plan somebody up there has set for us.Supreme power,some hypothetical theory or be it a random idea,nobody knows how we and why we react in a particular way to situations in life.Believe it or not,matches are still made in heaven.Those that are not,god forbid reform,get deformed or linger on survival.Accidents bound to happen,happen still.Miracles do exist and we see many facets of god in one or other form,however strong we feel that he/she is just a part of our belief.Whatever exists or does not,nobody knows.We predict,propose or conclude,but still follow the game plan that has been set somewhere by somebody.Then where does the fear of failure,losing precious things,societal pressures,the urge to do big,earn big come from?Arent we wasting our time over petty issues when our within is fighting hard everyday to rid us of the wordly desires?Arent the pravachans by gurus all just an introspection apart ?why do they seem good when told but never thought of when we fail to understand that somewhere within,we have purest souls residing within us,trampled by our worldly sermons that we keep imposing on ourselves.Banging our heads over such things is not what i ask but a realisation that life is to be enjoyed well and happiness is within,even with or without our so called cherished dreams.We nay earn big buckes,appreciations, or compliments but what matters is that we earn a life which is worth us,we must earn peace which is so much a part of us,we must earn strength which is in our pain and we must earn respect by our belief,we must earn love which is the care we shower on our loved ones,that smile or a pat on back which tells it all....
Love your life,because nobody or nothing else which brings you pain matters..and you manifest what you belive!!

Serendipity

Expecting a good writeup with nothing much except a lot of hazy things in my typically complex mind and tagging it as serendipity is the height of confidence.:-) At times, i glare at my writeups,frames of my mind at various points of time,falashbacks which lead me to exlpore why and how i came up with a certain thing i wrote and i end up smiling or feeling weird at times.Offlate, i have developed that "leave it untold and unthought of " attitude towards certain things,things which would have pestered me,however small they would have been,things i would have thought of a lot,and i really feel great being a part of the new phenomeon.Isnt it cool to leave things,conversations,doubts uncleared and unresolved?Well, i dont know and dont want to either :-) Its very weird and depends from person to person.But,somewhere i feel, somethings left unsaid and undone change the entire flow of events - may change your life and affect others' too.But how does it matter? It doesnt,i guess because as they say, you cross roads all the time and whether you move with or against direction of wind,it doesnt make least of a difference,because the tortoise will also complete the race as will the rabbit, well,time taken,does matter,subject to choice.Lots of things on mind,so lots of complex and twisted words.Cant help it.:-) No serendipity as i had expected but still i opened up some vision on my thought process once again.:-)
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