Talking for the sake of it!!

We humans are strange creatures.We just train ourselves to see,listen,remember,speak,forget and move on.But our "words" remain.They say,"You can't get back what you have said,so mind your words!" Indeed,but wish it was simple.Wish there was a rewind button or much better a mute button,which we could all press,when upset or in anger or maybe just talking for the sake of gossiping, and then unmute when we were done.Wish it was that simple!

I sincerely feel regret,lots of it when i think about a friend,who probably overheard me speaking about something and turned our friendship sour.It breaks me heart every time i think about it.Happened for the first time and left me feeling terrible! I had found a very good friend in her,and just when we were about to get close,my stupid gossips made me lose her.I chose not to discuss anything and we both just drifted apart. At times,i did think of talking to her about it but then,i wondered,she might not understand,as she didn't know that much about me.Well, the fault was all mine!Such is life,every moment is precious and has a worth of its own.But then,i guess,we don't have the choice at times.Life gives us handful of people to choose and carry along and situations,pure situations out of nowhere ,decide who and how we carry some of our friends along,no matter what!

women!

It has been a heavy day.Too much to absorb,heard something about a friend which deeply moved me from within and led me to question life,relationships and introspect if running after our goals is all worth it? Whatever, such heavy stuff makes me sad and detached. A random news update on TOI, about how sadly women in the country are treated,almost everyday,is enough to propel you in the sinking sea of awareness and empathy. I feel a mixed set of anger and sadness developing within me when i hear stories about how cruel men ,think and act as if  they possess the women in their life.Well, society,blame it! I love U.S. culture in this regard and feel happy that women here are independent,happy and stand for themselves.Everyone works for himself or herself and speak up when they need to. Back in India,the fear of rejection from society,dependence on husbands for money,future of children, and x number of factors force women to stay indoors and tolerate injustice, which is unjustified most of the times.I watched the movie ' Lunchbox' recently and liked the subtle lesson the movie hints at. Blessed i feel,to be raised up in an encouraging environment and to be surrounded by people who have always let me be free, who have let me think and act on my own always.