Bucket list!

In an attempt to convert my rusty, old blog that eats, breathes and lives "love" and emotions so much that as i read through it, i see posts talking on and on about them, i hereby make an attempt to make it as real as i can.
And i start with my bucket list:

• Get Tattooed- Not the first in sequence, but listing it as i can tick it( Huge grin :-D) I am a brave owner of 3 small tattooes and i love each one of them. In the process, i inspired DH to do the same :-P
• Travel to Santorini- This year, i tell myself !
• Travel as much as i can- I feel extensive travel is still a far reaching goal but let's see life!
• Trek to Mt Everest- I can't say when-probably when i am free of motherly duties and my princess is older enough to survive without a mom just in case :-P
• Confessions- Could be any ,maybe to my school crush who i secretly admired for a long long time( and never ever talked- talk about butterflies in stomach!)
• Have more fun moments with friends!
• Write a book- No idea when this is happening.
• Do something i love  a lot-with my life -could be picking up hobbies or just having load of "Me" time away from facebook and other time consuming and focus draining things i do on most days apart from my daily tasks :-P( one being following groups on fitness and doing nothing about it except watching people get fit)
• Be in the best shape of my life- This i say to myself every year and with each passing year  as i write this- i am moving farther away from this one:-D
• Be my daughter's best friend and letting her be a free bird- Am a typical mom, always juggling between trying to "fit in" by letting my daughter take her own decisions at 4 to continously mumbling and urging her to eat, drink and do all such tasks every parent worries about, endlessly. 

I guess enough for now till i get back and fill more !!

Dear Diary!

Dear diary,

Yesterday i watched DDLJ after ages, ( i am not a fan of repeating movies - more like a one and done person except if something touches my heart) and i was mesmerized to say the least.

The movie seemed to bring back memories of the kind of love everyone spoke about- the kind of relationships i saw flourishing among my college friends, the simple silly crushes me and i my friends used to rave about and the lovey dovey couples i used to see in college/school.

In the 10 odd years that passed, what has changed so much that i don't see that "expression of love" that would make me go week in the knees? I see that "love" so rare in movies-let alone real life.

Did my "view" change now that am married and busy juggling between myriad roles in one day- a  paranoid mom always after her daughter to ensure she obliges and eats/drinks/stays well or a confused professional, running from one meeting to another and trying to understand zillions of things happening in workspace , or a lazy wife who takes the easy route cooking simple meals with less spice to have a piece of mind in each busy day ? 

or did everyone  and everything change around me- it sure is the latter.In our busy busy world of gadgets and facebook, we are all busy projecting a better side of ourselves, that we do not realize the need to have those moments which involve:

• tirelessly caring for each other 
• Being so much in each other's lives that anything can wait- to be with them means the world and everything else is secondary
• Despite the pressures of our life clock ticking each second, we take out the time to listen, empathize and uplift each other

Do we still see innocent love? The love that believes so much that it travels miles to make things happen- the love that trusts and moves mountains? In our new world of  gadgets where apps like Tinder-help people take shortcuts to find/lose the love/companionships they are seeking, I wonder if we are losing on charisma and warmth the relationships of pre-smartphone era brought to all of us??