SPEED IS THE NAME OF LIFE!!!

So,now that i consider myself partially in tune with the external stimulus,its been a week since chennai has become my abode ,i would pen down some of the changes. The journey from college to job started with an early morning flight - lost in the clouds blue and white,i was wondering how long will these colours and the beauty around would still keep on fascinating me,now that we would be sitting all throughout the day before PCs,or our playing cards,i must say..:) !!playing cards that will help us interact , learn and earn- the dire needs of a person in today's competitive environment!! But it has been good so far- and i hope it will be like this only!! Keeping aside all physical considerations and adjustments as far as shifting from north to south is concerned, i liked the way the things have turned up.Interacting with people from different places has been a real treat- leaving behind all language constraints and other inhibitions, making new friends and getting to learn the native language and yea,coping up with the negotiation process with the autowallas in chennai, all has become a part of daily funfilled adventures that we come through!! Umm...yeah, the transition from college to job has been an ubrupt and surprising one,what with everyday bringing into its folds some myths and misconceptions (read salaries ;) ) that we had been holding onto, and some more tasks to be allottedto us, new ventures to look forward to and some moments of happiness that being in action holds with it .Yeah, life is moving on a faster track, with every blind turn leading to a new world, new insights,new people to meet and many new experiences.Training sessions, conversations with the professionals,maintainin g professional etiquette, managing time , meeting new people,travelling - many things have changed,the way we used to behave in college, the "nobody cares " attitude , it was fun being in college.But, this change has also been a welcome one, the feel of "everthing matters ", displaying professional etiquette,the feeling of earning money, the feel of being mature enough to become a part of a leading organisation- it all has lead to a new view towards life, introduced us to a new world,a materalistic one must say, because here,there is no time- no time to think about things of past, no time to grumble, no time to have any hard feelings, no time to think twice...the reality is action , simply putting into words , doing whatever u feel even if it is okay or not. Because the time machine is not going to wait for you, so to avoid being left behind, just get going , dare to dream and dare to do.......

THE REVERIE UNFOLDS.....2K3 dons the bid adieu cap!!

This blog is certainly about fulfilling a promise that i made to a friend that i will be blogging about one of the best days of my college life, the GT(read get together) that marked the end of 4 yrs into making..making up of true engineers, with all those qualitise of managing things right at the last moment, be it projects, vivas and exams,anything may come,but our batch rather our class has been the best example of being on the track at the last possible moment,rising up finally from deep slumber everytime and the best part being that,things fall in place everytime and rather everybody gets a gud share in terms of marks or any grades for that matter.Thank the system this time for its laxativeness,we ahve all completed 4 big yrs of handling thngs on the verge of just failing to manage them,and we have always been successful...so,this has been the magic of murthal, a place where 4 yrs meant adjusting ourselves in tune with the silent and slow paced life that it offered, close to nature and beauty,with those peacocks and b'ful sounds of birds , it really felt good to be at a place like that.



Umm..talking about murthal would take many blogs,what i wish to write is about the memorable GT,which took place on 26th may, one day after our exams ended.It started with simple his and hellos with the ppl around, but nobody knew that it would turn out to be such a b'ful and lively experience.What followed is a game of asking ques from guys and some witty answers that set the mood. With only 30 ppl arnd,the ambience was gr8 and everybdy looked comfy and easy going.What followed next was unlimited jam session,although DJ was not that gud,but still the spirits played the part.Frequent clicks by digicams, music and dancing arnd really made evryone arnd happy.And then food...After a while, came the time for dedications...and flowed in some real feelings of that being our last GT together and the flow of thoughts like these made their way into minds of many,m sure...I did my bit with dedications to the class,varun (read a gud frnd) read a Bful poem about college life at murthal,where he took us all into a flashback of how each year saw tremendous changes in us and how things changed in a matter of just 4 years....and the poem was really very very gud indeed!!And then dedications ended,to be followed by songs by a grp of frnds, ppl who had tried their hand at proposing but were a bit unlucky, and they had photos together and sang some songs related to the theme ....and it soon turned out to be a start of the singing session,where we sang old songs in grps, and some college songs like summer of 69 and purani jeans,ye dosti,yaaron ....and then,again a photo session drifted away the feel of being away very soon again!!



And then,a jam session with nursery rhymes as the music,was real fun, i say..u cud see ppl acting on rhymes like lakdi ki kaathi and so on....a day i would not forget for sure..and then,after a long jam session,we finally retreated to lazying around outside and followed a nice game of antakshari...i was not an active member though..:)



but it was fun...



and we really got together again for some more pics ..:)



The final countdown started next day.....



A signature ceremony and a souvenier signing one ,with some smiley balls being the platform for some gr8 memories we will be having of that b'ful day...And then few handshakes and pats on backs which were to be become the last reminder of us being together...and thus, rushed in some emotionally charged thoughts that have been doing the rounds till now and will do so for some more time to come, till we all develop new worlds around us, a new set of dreams, goals and adjust with some new people ,only to get attached emotionally to them and feel at the place.But those diaries ,those souveniers and endless memories of pranks, goofups,GTs, gossips, placement times,strikes,discussion sessions,college fests and many more things we did together will always make us remember the times when under the same roof ,we saw each day unfolding with it, new surprises and new adventures,sometimes bad,sometimes good....Yeah the memory remains and will never be gone....hats off to alma mater for bringing us all together and giving us full fledged 4 yrs ,now that we are carrying with us varied bunches of memories,gud and bad,that will be accompanying us for years to come.......

Anything but Seperation!!!

This i found on the orkut profile of one of my very good friends,as i just logged on to orkut to kill time . Though it indicates pure nostalgia arising out of the fact that very soon, we all will be going to different companies ,ready to get our potentials tapped or to say accurately our working abilities utilized to the hilt as software professionals,now that we are on the verge of completion of last semester with exams near, i was really wondering whether it really is the seperation that is bothering us at this time!! Though its quite clear that very soon we all will get preoccupied with our so called professional advances, in synchronism with the survival of the fittest theory, coz we will have to fight against the scorching heat of competition and learn to create opportunities from failures.But ,we are not really prepared for the phase that will follow- most of us still feel like a kid, under the support of parents and friends, some of us still fret over small problems , many of us still use the so called contacts to get things done by hook or crook, many of us still think life is all about having fun.....There are countless things that need to be changed before we step into the big bad world of professionalism that awaits us .

And to top it all, we are reeling under the loss of losing the friends we have made so far, losing contacts in the midst of busy schedules, those funloving moments that we still cherish, those get togethers that are simple yet so special in their own terms, those jokes and giggles that set the moods manytimes, those celebrations we had together, those small nothings we used to share, those beautifully knitted dreams that we used to take together,long useless gossips, mass bunks, those three cheers and applause that we gave to ourselves after we turned something up into a reality,those calling teachers by weird names, united efforts to convince teachers to give us concessions........there are a lot many things that are never going to be the same after we start working , we will really be missing these days ,for the effortlessness and the simplicity they carried , for that sense of freedom they entailed,for the laughter they evoked, for the spirits they contributed to....It will be dificult to forget all these days.....and so as she had written that she can bear anything but seperation,i just wished that things could remain as they are,that time could leave us some more moments to enjoy the last final days before we get scattered and seperated in our bid to carve niches for ourselves.....
But time and tide wait for no one and all the more, it is the magic of seperation only that makes u realise ow much u miss people that really matter to u and u remain in contact with them after u seperate from them....

LIFE'S GOOD....

To be frank,this post simply is an effort in the path of self assurance that i can write something towards brighter side too..:) Offlate,i realised that i had started writing much about the gloomier side of life,about some truths that we face everyday yet avoid talking about them face to face to avoid the emptyness lying within each of us.No, i don't plan to fill this post with what all i have been writing so much about till now...:) So , this time its to gather all my positive vibes to create ,what is called a cheerful impact !!Umm....yeah, life is good only if u feel that ways, coz the trick lies in what i just said, absorbing positive vibes and let the negative vibes pass ur way leaving u untouched, unaffected and the best case is when they leave u with better approach to look forward towards the things in life. Leave alone all that frustration and outbursts, its a done thing that life is what u feel about it.Yeah, i do agree that when something bad happens, u feel bad and cry for sometime till u forget about it and again, u start living each day as it comes. But , as good things start happening to u, that feel good factor ,hidden somehere,appears in full force and there u are, all contented and wonder if u could ask anything more out of life and wish the tide of time could never flow. Yeah, i still find its really difficult to understand the intricacies of life , but all my posts apart,:)..i would still say it aloud that life is good if u think about it in such a way.Hmmm...thinking light and containing a flushed heart with no negativity inside is a tough job, to be frank, but it pays a lot, and the prize is really worth it - a cheerful perspective that may keep u going !! Having negativity touch u is also not bad, coz nobody knows whether bad is really bad or painful and then,again there are no standard and conventional laws,bad may be better for u at times, but, still, having positive thoughts produce an ever lasting effect on u is what is the right way to keep going on in life!! LIFE-seems a small word but theres so much to write and discuss about it..:) saying that from a philosopher's point of view ..:)
Think i managed to write some part of what i was actually planning to write !!

Shshh........

Far away from the crowd,there i stand -silent and numb.Not that i have nothing to say, but the fact is that i am on my way to try out if silence is really golden.Outside,i seem poised and settled,more to say,satisfied with the way life is turning up,but,deep down under,i can hear the echoes very clearly,yes,faint but still clearly audible, myself shrieking and shouting,trying to speak up to my heart's content,satisfied in the least with how the things are shaping up.
Hmmm...wondering whether what i believe is an exaggeration...am i really dissatisfied or frustrated??Don't i have the things one needs to be happy??Dont i have accomplishments or feats in my kitty??Dont i have loving people to fall back upon whenever the storm of solitude takes me away ??Dont i have what is called the"passion" to live everyday up??
Seems this is an unending tirade of questions that erupt in my mind out of nowhere.Blaming my silly ideas and wayward thoughts,i move on.Yeah,most of the above is not true,but is not false either.Controversies and confusions apart,there are somethings i would like to change, many of them rather, so that i can recreate that so called passion or spirit that i used to carry earlier,which has been covered by the sands of time and age....
Philosophically speaking, can silence be golden??At this instant itself,i can count atleast twenty things i would like to speak up about with somebody or the other,things i would like to clarify,explanations that i would like to ask for,those hidden revelations that i would like to make to those i care about,some ideas that i fear are weird but still i would like to share.....and the words go on.But the moment is not right.I cannot speak.Because they say u can't help somethings by speaking up or complaining against them,u end up making matters worse that way.So,u should remain silent because its golden.Like a golden pot can't make sounds when beaten ,similarly,i feel silence can't really help hit the problem and find solutions for it,rather it is silence onle that kills.Kills opportunities,kills confidence,kills love,kills patience and kills the spirits to rise above all odds once u feel that the matters are cold now..
So,silence may be golden,but there does'nt really exists any difference between a person crying in a small hut or the one crying inside a golden house.Silence is no more the way to curb the problems - it is about holding back and running away from them,in the name of the unnecessary task of justifying urself and not giving others the right to question ur actions.in this busy world,where evryone is mad building fortunes,do u expect somebody to hear ur silence,though i dont say silence doesn't speak,but u need to shout in today's times,let alone speaking,??
So,just let the words flow and decide ur fate , as they say.....
Its only words and words are all i have to take ur heart away

THE JOURNEY CALLED LIFE.....

As we come to this bright beautiful world where everyday millions of dreams turn into realities while billion others are bitten by the fangs of time or inadequacy,we realise that every single day brings with it some new facts,new people in our lives,new relationships,some hardcore truths,some beautiful moments,some bitter encounters,new experiences,new adventures,new failures,new goals and obviously new set of emotions and feelings ,in short new baggage to carry on with u everytime.But,what remains same in the wake of it all is ur self,the same heart,same mind, same outlook...err,am i really right on this??Let me introspect.Yeah,i found a countless no. of changes over time,i think everybody does,so we should better say same heart but soft corners for new people,same mind but new approach and a different take on thngs altogether,outlook can never be same unless the person concerned is really smug and comfortable living in particular conditions,this obviously includes his emotional compatibility,his ability to develop both mentally and otherwise.Generally speaking,outlook improves with experience,or to say as u meet more and more people,adjust with them,face more and more realities,recover from some bad experiences,take lessons from ur mistakes, and break away from ur failures,u keep on improving ur outlook until a time comes,when u feel totally self confident of ur opinions and views on life.You feel that finally u have accomplished the difficult goal of understanding urself and understanding complexities of life and the moving on that it teaches u every time u fail or feel cheated,now that u will be able to cope up with feelings of melancholy and loneliness,now that u feel that the urge to be with someone who understands u is finally subdued,u really feel like a winner.But that feel good factor is short lived to ur utter dismay,coz as u are celebrating ur conquests over life and urself,u find noone to be with,to share with someone how u faced all the odds alone,how u braved it all to be a winner.....
And u start fumbling for companionship,and like a mirror,crash all the virtues that u had gathered working really hard- that self confidence,the self assurance that u became proud of so soon,but u don't really want to accept that all ur hard work is lost in the waters of solitude.And this adds on to the agony....
u start feeling frustrated,alone and lonely,not that there is nobody close but the utter reality is that everybody is so close yet so far,and that thngs dont matter to anybody,and thugh this might sound cool ........doesnt it??Nobody cares for watever u do...that means u have all the freedom to be ur own.But is this freedom really worth it...??Do u really do thngs to make urself happy and u don't care or bother about nybody??is it that u dont care what ppl might think??is it that u are comfortable being alone,just because people are too busy to listen to ur silence??These questions might be a bit bold but once u get answers to these or are already having them,half of the battle is already won.As for me,still searching!!!!

I WANNA TOUCH THE SKY..............

I wanna touch the sky and become a star today,

because the world of relations has been blackening me everyday.

I wanna flutter my wings like a proud bird of prey,

Its been long that i was silent,now i wish to have my say.

I wanna play the games i have been losing, all again,

To get back on things that i let go of in vain.

I wanna grab those keys that lead to the right door,

now that i am exhausted hopping from floor to floor.

I wanna break those bonds that are far away from heart,

to see how it feels watching people ,close yet so far, standing apart.

I wanna break some shackles that have been gripping me tight,

to move out of darkness and to taste the beauty of the light.

I wanna stop feeling the way i have since long,

to stop cursing myself for things that went wrong.

I wanna give a damn to how people might think,

to move out and see ,what i have been watching through a chink.

I wanna turn the winds and the tide,

to break free from certainty into the unexpected side.

I wanna welcome both the happiness and the pain ,

to accept the realities that once i used to disdain.

I wanna touch the sky........