THE JOURNEY CALLED LIFE.....

As we come to this bright beautiful world where everyday millions of dreams turn into realities while billion others are bitten by the fangs of time or inadequacy,we realise that every single day brings with it some new facts,new people in our lives,new relationships,some hardcore truths,some beautiful moments,some bitter encounters,new experiences,new adventures,new failures,new goals and obviously new set of emotions and feelings ,in short new baggage to carry on with u everytime.But,what remains same in the wake of it all is ur self,the same heart,same mind, same outlook...err,am i really right on this??Let me introspect.Yeah,i found a countless no. of changes over time,i think everybody does,so we should better say same heart but soft corners for new people,same mind but new approach and a different take on thngs altogether,outlook can never be same unless the person concerned is really smug and comfortable living in particular conditions,this obviously includes his emotional compatibility,his ability to develop both mentally and otherwise.Generally speaking,outlook improves with experience,or to say as u meet more and more people,adjust with them,face more and more realities,recover from some bad experiences,take lessons from ur mistakes, and break away from ur failures,u keep on improving ur outlook until a time comes,when u feel totally self confident of ur opinions and views on life.You feel that finally u have accomplished the difficult goal of understanding urself and understanding complexities of life and the moving on that it teaches u every time u fail or feel cheated,now that u will be able to cope up with feelings of melancholy and loneliness,now that u feel that the urge to be with someone who understands u is finally subdued,u really feel like a winner.But that feel good factor is short lived to ur utter dismay,coz as u are celebrating ur conquests over life and urself,u find noone to be with,to share with someone how u faced all the odds alone,how u braved it all to be a winner.....
And u start fumbling for companionship,and like a mirror,crash all the virtues that u had gathered working really hard- that self confidence,the self assurance that u became proud of so soon,but u don't really want to accept that all ur hard work is lost in the waters of solitude.And this adds on to the agony....
u start feeling frustrated,alone and lonely,not that there is nobody close but the utter reality is that everybody is so close yet so far,and that thngs dont matter to anybody,and thugh this might sound cool ........doesnt it??Nobody cares for watever u do...that means u have all the freedom to be ur own.But is this freedom really worth it...??Do u really do thngs to make urself happy and u don't care or bother about nybody??is it that u dont care what ppl might think??is it that u are comfortable being alone,just because people are too busy to listen to ur silence??These questions might be a bit bold but once u get answers to these or are already having them,half of the battle is already won.As for me,still searching!!!!