Dream aloud!

There are times when you just want some things to be hidden from others, to be left unspoken and rather not discussed,because you fear if you talk or brag about them,you will lose them.I have had this feeling about exams(and the hardwork that i put in) and the things that i have wanted most in my life.Goal after goal, i have realized that if i keep mum,not dreaming or talking much about things i want the most,i get closer to them and one day,reach them.Somewhere there arise a lot of "Maybes".Maybe dreaming and assuming that i have already achieved my targets might lessen up my passion and want.Or maybe if i think about them more and realize that they are way easier than the first thought, i might start working less harder for them.Or Simply,maybe it protects me from the evil eye.Maybe it will save the disappointment and embarrassment i might have to face if i fail?? so many maybes,for small targets.Crazy, but somehow that has helped me through my high school scores well :-P. And now,when i have him by my side,i still try to persuade myself to think less,at the most happiest moments.Fearing the evil eye or my stupid notions.But this realization isn't that weak.It doesn't fade away now.And somewhere,within,it does make me the happiest person to have found him.And i am no longer afraid to dream aloud and to think about life, some years ahead,with him. And i feel blessed,for all that i have.

The culinary road!

So,after zillions of words about the world of emotions, i feel obliged to write about FOOD,  another love of my life.So,this blog is somewhat inspired by some blogs i flipped through while  searching recipes on the internet. You google a recipe and a moment later,there you go -Pictures,recipes and youtube videos of ladies cooking in plush kitchens, to be precise kitchens abroad, shelling out details of preparing Khoya,sweets and other such food items not easily available outside India.We have ways to survive and flourish almost everywhere we go,dont we? Well, before i get a new direction to my words,i feel like bragging about my culinary experiments at the moment. Way past north Indian dishes(which just needed a little brush up and few calls to my Mom), i am already half way through  other countries,on my menu.Okay,i never cooked chinese, but frequent attempts do speak volumes now.Italian- i am still a practitioner, though with the minestrone soup i cooked today,i feel like a real winner. Success at  eggplant parmesan cheese  did the wonders too. :-) Baking has been one of the challenges which i have been trying to win over since long.But what with the coil ovens which just work wonders, i felt like winning an old battle,when i baked my most delicious cake some months ago.Though i dont bake much now,but  i still remember the terrible feeling of  wasting a lump of half baked cake( when something or other goes wrong) :-P.  Yes there are failures too.But that shouldnt deter you from trying,they say.Be it soul finding or kitchen,you gotta try till you feel you are done.And that you are never done. :-P


I wonder how much more can i brag about the moments i spend in the kitchen, among whistles of a pressure cooker , the zrrr of a grinder or  the crackling noise of spices,  surrounded by  flavours of dishes i manage,or cook well at times.Cooking is an art, and you have to be really patient to hit the perfect spot.and i still got many miles to go before i create my own masterpiece.And when i see some people cooking the best of the dishes, i feel awed by the effort  and love they put in their masterpieces.

A Long Way!!

Did it ever occur to you to look behind and flip back on old times?See the people you have left behind,and check upon where they are,what's happened in their lives or have they changed?Facebook,and its constant updates help you look and get amazed at some makeovers,the checkins keep you updated about recent whereabouts,or some people make sure they update even the slightest happenings on their profiles,making themselves crystal clear, or the cover photos of those "who were just some knowns" ,say a lot about what has changed since old times.At such moments,i just wonder "how far i have come"?? With things happening in split seconds, we dont realize but we travel a lot in terms of time.And i wonder i have travelled a long way since last few years.Everyone has i guess.My colleagues,they are all around different parts of the world. Some have had major makeovers,some got married,some did MBA and are back to collared jobs,some are seen reuniting with their friends in US, while some are still waiting for new things and changes to come their way too.Changes, hell lot of them. Attitude,actions,appearances and status- i have had a lot of changes too like others.Isnt it weird that when you place yourself,years ago, and try to relive some small wayward xyz situation, you realize that you remember almost everything about it?And travel back in time,thinking that if it was for now,you could have  thought,acted in a way different way than before.Experience,really is god.And it comes with time,of age.Working mysteriously at times when its supposed to do so,so that by the time you mature,already half way through path B,you realize that path A was easier, but what you lacked then was experience.And ofcourse, you shine on  path B coz time brings that power of self realization within you.And you turn up a changed person. How can you blame yourself, when the most bful diamonds too take a lot of cutting before they really shine?? But the truth is, there is no bigger thing than self contentment and its the only way to cross miles before you depart the world,before you turn back and flip through your life for the last time ever.

The vivid Fall!!

As each day gets closer to my dreamy snowfall season, i just cant get enough of the fall too. A casual stroll in awesome weather in a nearby preserve just left me enriched with the beauty of fall here.The yellow,reds,greens and browns just leave you awe inspired by their beauty and splendour.Fall is one of those times when nature is at its beautiful best.As i clicked this picture and looked above just after that,the faded blue of the late morning sky between tall trees with their yellow leaves,and a slight breeze crossing my face, i just closed my eyes and it became one of those moments when you feel so close to peace. Isnt it so romantic when,as you walk by from nearby gym, in an adrenaline rush,and a cool breeze just sways you along,making you feel elated and the music from headphones,adding to the joy. :-)I love that moment enough to drag myself to gym many times :-P. But yes, those tall trees and the beautiful leaves falling from them,adorning the path, make a perfect walk of happiness.And the mystic beauty of it all just makes me wonder,how seasons change and make life beautiful all around.Just like these leaves fall from the trees, making way for others, to follow their own cycles,they just remind us of the love,care and commitment needed to  make our lives and  those around us beautiful.

Love and bragging about it!

Just ended up watching a "cute" movie about love and friends.Feeling like bragging about it,love ofcourse.Love makes you stupid and insane,by each day.Then why do people fall in love?Reasons galore,or probably reasons beyond what the eyes can see,ears can hear and the mind can comprehend,or in the least,no reasons.In our bid to take along some part of present with us all the time,we fall in love and feel in love with people around us-friends,family( a special zone of eternal love i believe) and strangers( remember your crushes??? :)) Till it is clouded by things which didnt matter till sometime ago,and you slide it in your past,only to cling to something/someone else, to mark the new present?Why does love become much more than an emotion sometimes?Since when did every word put out by that special someone in your life  made your day or bring up the blues?Since when did you lose the power to your soul,just when things go wrong with someone you love.What do you do then?Blame love ofcourse.Love and its ways,ah.But love comes of age.They say,the harder you try to achieve something,the more precious it has had been in your life.Same goes down the love lane.The harder you try,the harder it gets of you.Let loose,and believe in yourself.Your instincts and life beyond possessing some emotions.And it will all make sense.Things unfold,only when you let them.Only when you let them be free.Free to choose.And you see,the whole universe will love you back,once you let yourself loose and love thyself.

Romance!

I came with my girls,shouting and laughing along,
in a moment,dancing to my favourite song.
As my eyes fell on you,they found something,
Touching me through your eyes,i knew it would be a fling.
Anticipation in my eyes,as you moved ahead,
and came closer, your smile saying things unsaid.
And i smiled back at your shining eyes,
And parted soon,waving goodbyes.
But i saw myself staring at you,
finding you walking by today,out of blue.
We both stopped,and you asked me out,
and now you are what i can think all about.
And as we ended our short summer romance,
My girlfriends called out for the night's last dance.