!!True Romance!!

A movie,1993,close to Pulp fiction.Life,death, evil acts all simplified in a single platform.a casual sattire on one of the most gruelling truths of life,death.Ends on a happy note.What struck me was a ironical display of belongingness,of love,care and emotions amidst brutality,crime and the greed for money.Contradictions-are they so easy to portray? Can we be good to some and evil to others at the same time?? Do we all wear multi faceted masks,changing one each time,to get our parts right all the time? Do we act good ,when deep inside we hate what we do?Do we or dont we??No thought,or a lot of thought?? Perhaps,no thought,all is fiction.
But, when you see stories of brutality and revenge in newspapers,media all around,you feel estranged. Every alternate day,some or the other story of a revenge,of dowry deaths,of people not managing well with each other peacefully after marriage,the persons in question being the "ones who were once upon in love with each other"? When love starts making you what you never wanted to be,is it still love?You should fall in love,and rise thereafter.But if the feeling of being in love makes you think that you were better off single,its not love anymore...Is it a gift of our high collared jobs which leave us with less time for bonding with our loved ones?Or the westernisation of ideas where breaking trust is no more a sin,or where the frustration of working hard with not much recognition leashes upon tender relationships?or where some decisions are borne out of circumstances than will??
Wonder,as its high time we recollect,retrospect and realize how important relationships are and whether we can accept a person at his/her worst before looking at brighter sides .And put an end to ignoring the differences and endless arguments above certain limits and reconcile with realities with an open mind and an open heart?
And love shall prevail.

A new world!

You return to things which are your own, which never desert you even when you remember them only when you need them.And thus,i return to writing again,with new thoughts and many more things on mind than my words can describe.Hurt,love,care,ego,indifference,
guilt,misunderstanding, longingness- are somethings which make us feel,sense and react.We keep ourselves entangled in webs created by our own feelings,changing our perceptions,and wavering from our beliefs from time to time,between the battles of heart and mind,one outweighing other alternately.But at times i wonder- is there a world out there where the feelings are not materialistic,where affection is not the parameter of love,where actions not only speak but show louder too?? Where misunderstandings are trampled before they grow into differences? Where egos mean nothing but strands of dust which are wiped clean,every time they start collecting at surface of bful relationships? Where letting go is in your blood,so much that you hardly care who does what as long as you don't hurt anyone?Where the object of love is not words but silence? Where insecurities are nothing but figments of imaginations which wil never come true?? Where trust is a part of every breath you take?
Wonder,it was so easy!

The wait!

Wait...wait..wait.. am falling behind,
wonder if i have pressed "forward" or "rewind".
I want to fly high,far away from all things,
You promised, if i follow you,you shall give me wings..
I am lost,guessing,if i am limping or is it a start of a flight,
some clue,and i will think more dear of my plight.
I wonder,if my prayers reach you,
waiting to be amongst the lucky few.
when, answered will be whatever i ask for most,
smiling and twinkling,i shall raise a toast.
I wait to thank you and my stars,
and for the end of some silent wars..

And back again! :)

Just when you think life has become stagnant and its only you who has not been moving since a long time,you dont realise that you have been making most of the moves,which go unnoticed.Not that all of them are in your favour,but you change,emerge,put a step forward,limp back 4 steps,but you still keep moving.Look back and i see wonderful memories of times which will never come back.Blink,and i see the things around.Peace,but something is amiss.Yet some compensation.Or is it? I wonder.I feel if whatever i do,whatever i say and whatever i assume,plan and put into action,is it what i really want or am i still holding on to time?Are the diversions in the plan,appropriate?Am i still driven by the vision that has led me to places or is it that my vision is missing some spots,one of which could be the lights that will light the space and the world around me.I wonder.I think,but not much. And i feel,dream,smile while i tuck those dreams somewhere near my heart,every dream,longed for,things asked for,prayed for,and thought over and over for.Well,when those dreams materialise is something which i don't fret about,now.Because,they change often and when they do, there is no point pondering over them if you know that they are gonna be wiped off your memory soon.
Such is life.Things happen,sometimes for reasons,many times for no reason,of which you find reasons somehow.You react,smile,fret,cry or laugh it out but you have to live with it.

The Sky,does it matter if its october one!!!

Just ended up watching a wonderful movie,October Sky.As i listen to Atif aslam's new track and write this up, i am feeling so pepped up and great to be waking up late and watching the movie i mentioned.Super work.Great direction,characters well played,Homer,John Hickam and the Rocket Guys. A must for those who take the odd path and have a tendency to get defeated by odds.Homer hickam epitomises a man of conviction,perseverence,determination,wit and grit.How the Rocket guys manage to design a rocket by endless attempts on stretch of barren land,far from Coal city,and end up standing different.Wow!! My takeaways,if you cant get it,you got to beat it!!Success doesnt come dear.Decisions falter.Faith stumbles.Circumstances cheat.But what stands apart is the will power,the determination,the voice inside that you will get it,one day and that day is what you will have to form out of your conviction,hard work and belief.And somewhere it has motivated me,to believe,stand and walk proud because it doesnt matter if you really get it or not,that comes really later.What precludes is the belief,will power and the efforts.I will put efforts,dreaming that i will make it big one day.Yes,i know i will. But i have to keep my eyes open,wide open.Even if the world forces me to move my goal out of sight,even if the winds blow too hard and direct my goal somewhere else,but i shall find it whatever may happen.Because i am made to try,to fall and rise till one day,the velocity of my efforts overcomes the gravity of the roadblocks and help me escape with an escape velocity and i will orbit around the world of my dreams.Wow, i am already writing in terms of space.Among other things,I know am gonna write,write a lot.And i will,like now.
Thanks October Sky.You really made a difference, atleast to the way i am thinking right now,at the moment.And i love the way i am feeling at this moment. :-)

Miracles!!

How strange it is that "NO News"becomes the hottest buzz just in a span of some years!Guess what,miracles.Yes,am talking of relationships.Was just going through my Facebook account and was wondering that so many of my college seniors and my collegemates married each other,who surprisingly didnt know much about each other,during those hay days.Wonderful and great news kept pouring in,thanks to facebook,:-).Networking or maybe same location of work,but isnt it so beautiful that those people crossed roads time and again to be soulmates one day?I am left in awe at this strange work of the almighty,or you can say the circumstances,destiny or whatever name you want it to fit in.And love happens,and i think two birds who have known each other in college times when pretence was at its minimum,there cant be better choice for them than being together.I feel so happy whenever i see such things happening and it feels great to be knowing both the sides :-).Well love just happens,or you can say at times,you make it happen.!! :-)

Going on!!

What does it take to settle whats going on inside you??Assurances,lot of them.Thinking,it never stops.A shoulder to cry,rare.Sympathies,who cares about them.Someone who understands,probably.Or reconciliations,they are in most of the times the only choices you have and you need to make,however hard you try to run away.And one fine day,you give up on what you have been fighting for, making compromises.Compromises that change the course what you had planned for yourself,just when you had thought that after struggles,you are being directed to what you have always dreamt of,and you are left feeling,lost,confused and devastated.Still,you carry yourself together again and take up the challenge.But i always wonder,defeats bring strength but what else do they bring? Do they deter you from dreaming big? No,but they certainly put filters to your dreams.You dream realistic dreams,practical ones,where you know you have to be accepting obstacles,however tired you feel,you have to keep going on.Going on,with vision but no expectation,till you find happiness in whatever that comes your way.'Happiness doesn't mean everything is perfect,it means you have decided to look beyond imperfections'.I have always loved this quote and i have been trying since ages to implement it.I fail at times,sometimes,i live upto it.I experience extremes of emotions at times like a small child,who wants the world and whimpers when he doesn't have it though he knows that its impossible,and smiles the next moment,as if nothing happened.Beacuse Life goes on.Without anybody realising when you shed tears or when you smiled your best,when you were in sorrow or when you celebrated your biggest achivement.When you were experiencing a turmoil or when you discovered 'tranquility'.When you felt bad at that smallest remark or when someone's compliment made your day.Nobody cares.Life still goes on.And you have to keep moving,no matter what...