LIFE'S GOOD....

To be frank,this post simply is an effort in the path of self assurance that i can write something towards brighter side too..:) Offlate,i realised that i had started writing much about the gloomier side of life,about some truths that we face everyday yet avoid talking about them face to face to avoid the emptyness lying within each of us.No, i don't plan to fill this post with what all i have been writing so much about till now...:) So , this time its to gather all my positive vibes to create ,what is called a cheerful impact !!Umm....yeah, life is good only if u feel that ways, coz the trick lies in what i just said, absorbing positive vibes and let the negative vibes pass ur way leaving u untouched, unaffected and the best case is when they leave u with better approach to look forward towards the things in life. Leave alone all that frustration and outbursts, its a done thing that life is what u feel about it.Yeah, i do agree that when something bad happens, u feel bad and cry for sometime till u forget about it and again, u start living each day as it comes. But , as good things start happening to u, that feel good factor ,hidden somehere,appears in full force and there u are, all contented and wonder if u could ask anything more out of life and wish the tide of time could never flow. Yeah, i still find its really difficult to understand the intricacies of life , but all my posts apart,:)..i would still say it aloud that life is good if u think about it in such a way.Hmmm...thinking light and containing a flushed heart with no negativity inside is a tough job, to be frank, but it pays a lot, and the prize is really worth it - a cheerful perspective that may keep u going !! Having negativity touch u is also not bad, coz nobody knows whether bad is really bad or painful and then,again there are no standard and conventional laws,bad may be better for u at times, but, still, having positive thoughts produce an ever lasting effect on u is what is the right way to keep going on in life!! LIFE-seems a small word but theres so much to write and discuss about it..:) saying that from a philosopher's point of view ..:)
Think i managed to write some part of what i was actually planning to write !!

Shshh........

Far away from the crowd,there i stand -silent and numb.Not that i have nothing to say, but the fact is that i am on my way to try out if silence is really golden.Outside,i seem poised and settled,more to say,satisfied with the way life is turning up,but,deep down under,i can hear the echoes very clearly,yes,faint but still clearly audible, myself shrieking and shouting,trying to speak up to my heart's content,satisfied in the least with how the things are shaping up.
Hmmm...wondering whether what i believe is an exaggeration...am i really dissatisfied or frustrated??Don't i have the things one needs to be happy??Dont i have accomplishments or feats in my kitty??Dont i have loving people to fall back upon whenever the storm of solitude takes me away ??Dont i have what is called the"passion" to live everyday up??
Seems this is an unending tirade of questions that erupt in my mind out of nowhere.Blaming my silly ideas and wayward thoughts,i move on.Yeah,most of the above is not true,but is not false either.Controversies and confusions apart,there are somethings i would like to change, many of them rather, so that i can recreate that so called passion or spirit that i used to carry earlier,which has been covered by the sands of time and age....
Philosophically speaking, can silence be golden??At this instant itself,i can count atleast twenty things i would like to speak up about with somebody or the other,things i would like to clarify,explanations that i would like to ask for,those hidden revelations that i would like to make to those i care about,some ideas that i fear are weird but still i would like to share.....and the words go on.But the moment is not right.I cannot speak.Because they say u can't help somethings by speaking up or complaining against them,u end up making matters worse that way.So,u should remain silent because its golden.Like a golden pot can't make sounds when beaten ,similarly,i feel silence can't really help hit the problem and find solutions for it,rather it is silence onle that kills.Kills opportunities,kills confidence,kills love,kills patience and kills the spirits to rise above all odds once u feel that the matters are cold now..
So,silence may be golden,but there does'nt really exists any difference between a person crying in a small hut or the one crying inside a golden house.Silence is no more the way to curb the problems - it is about holding back and running away from them,in the name of the unnecessary task of justifying urself and not giving others the right to question ur actions.in this busy world,where evryone is mad building fortunes,do u expect somebody to hear ur silence,though i dont say silence doesn't speak,but u need to shout in today's times,let alone speaking,??
So,just let the words flow and decide ur fate , as they say.....
Its only words and words are all i have to take ur heart away

THE JOURNEY CALLED LIFE.....

As we come to this bright beautiful world where everyday millions of dreams turn into realities while billion others are bitten by the fangs of time or inadequacy,we realise that every single day brings with it some new facts,new people in our lives,new relationships,some hardcore truths,some beautiful moments,some bitter encounters,new experiences,new adventures,new failures,new goals and obviously new set of emotions and feelings ,in short new baggage to carry on with u everytime.But,what remains same in the wake of it all is ur self,the same heart,same mind, same outlook...err,am i really right on this??Let me introspect.Yeah,i found a countless no. of changes over time,i think everybody does,so we should better say same heart but soft corners for new people,same mind but new approach and a different take on thngs altogether,outlook can never be same unless the person concerned is really smug and comfortable living in particular conditions,this obviously includes his emotional compatibility,his ability to develop both mentally and otherwise.Generally speaking,outlook improves with experience,or to say as u meet more and more people,adjust with them,face more and more realities,recover from some bad experiences,take lessons from ur mistakes, and break away from ur failures,u keep on improving ur outlook until a time comes,when u feel totally self confident of ur opinions and views on life.You feel that finally u have accomplished the difficult goal of understanding urself and understanding complexities of life and the moving on that it teaches u every time u fail or feel cheated,now that u will be able to cope up with feelings of melancholy and loneliness,now that u feel that the urge to be with someone who understands u is finally subdued,u really feel like a winner.But that feel good factor is short lived to ur utter dismay,coz as u are celebrating ur conquests over life and urself,u find noone to be with,to share with someone how u faced all the odds alone,how u braved it all to be a winner.....
And u start fumbling for companionship,and like a mirror,crash all the virtues that u had gathered working really hard- that self confidence,the self assurance that u became proud of so soon,but u don't really want to accept that all ur hard work is lost in the waters of solitude.And this adds on to the agony....
u start feeling frustrated,alone and lonely,not that there is nobody close but the utter reality is that everybody is so close yet so far,and that thngs dont matter to anybody,and thugh this might sound cool ........doesnt it??Nobody cares for watever u do...that means u have all the freedom to be ur own.But is this freedom really worth it...??Do u really do thngs to make urself happy and u don't care or bother about nybody??is it that u dont care what ppl might think??is it that u are comfortable being alone,just because people are too busy to listen to ur silence??These questions might be a bit bold but once u get answers to these or are already having them,half of the battle is already won.As for me,still searching!!!!

I WANNA TOUCH THE SKY..............

I wanna touch the sky and become a star today,

because the world of relations has been blackening me everyday.

I wanna flutter my wings like a proud bird of prey,

Its been long that i was silent,now i wish to have my say.

I wanna play the games i have been losing, all again,

To get back on things that i let go of in vain.

I wanna grab those keys that lead to the right door,

now that i am exhausted hopping from floor to floor.

I wanna break those bonds that are far away from heart,

to see how it feels watching people ,close yet so far, standing apart.

I wanna break some shackles that have been gripping me tight,

to move out of darkness and to taste the beauty of the light.

I wanna stop feeling the way i have since long,

to stop cursing myself for things that went wrong.

I wanna give a damn to how people might think,

to move out and see ,what i have been watching through a chink.

I wanna turn the winds and the tide,

to break free from certainty into the unexpected side.

I wanna welcome both the happiness and the pain ,

to accept the realities that once i used to disdain.

I wanna touch the sky........

These are some of the poems i came across recently by chance,these have been written by karan singh and i really liked the way he has expressed the feelings...

TETE A TETE
She said ‘You have a lovely face’
I said ‘it only shares your grace’
She said ‘Your eyes are dark and deep’
I said ‘your images they keep’
She said ‘Your gaze is full of bliss’
I said ‘The rapture of your kiss’
She said ‘Yours arms are band of steel’
I said ‘Your silhouette they feel’
She said ‘Why do you love me so’
I said ‘That I will never know....

Another poem that touched me was like this..............


A WHISPERED DIALOGUE
Someone whispered in my ear
one evening,as the setting sun set fire to the landscape;
I cannot quite recall the words
but the burden went something like this:
‘Time speeds by on flying feetand all our life is bitter-sweet
with expectation, hope and sorrow,
and we vainly seek tomorrow
what we could not find today;
for this we strive, for this we pay
with our life’s blood but then at last—
all strength expended, hoping past—
we fail and sink, and lose our breath
into the nothingness called death’
I sat quite still,
so quiet I could not hear the beating of my heart,
until another whisper spoke
with somewhat firmer tone and sweeter voice:

‘This is not true, the daily strife
that builds the structure of our life
need not be always fought in vain
and need not end in death and pain;
there is a path the mystics know
wherein the lights of heaven glow,
there is path that the sages tread
which leads them past the hosts of dead
and dying bodies, leads them on
to that one place where none has gone
who has not shed his mortal dress,
the rainbow bridge which all must cross
who seek in life finality,
and glowing immortality..

Another one that caught my eye was like this....
Although this one was titled hymn to shiva but i would prefer it without a title because it can also mean surrender of one's soul to somebody ,if say we don't mark it as a tribute to god only....



"I am your plaything.
You can breathe into me
the fire of eternal life,
and make me immortal;
or You can scatter my atoms
to the far corner of the universe
so that I disappear for ever.

You can fill me with light and power
so that I shine like a meteor
against the darkness of the midnight sky;
or You can extinguish my spirit
so that I sink for ever
into the deep and fathomless ocean of time.

You can set me among the eternal stars
resplendent with your divine fire;
or You can hurl me
into the abyss of darkness,
so that I can never again be visible
to mortal eyes.

You can come to me
with the glory of a thousand cupids;
or You can turn from me
and leave me stranded
in a grey and ghastly desert of despair.

You can smile at me
with the radiance that kindles the universe;
or You can open your eye of fury
and reduce me to a heap of ashes.

I am your plaything;
The choice is yours.........."

BELIEVE IN URSELF......

Sometimes, i wonder what really is the force behind some bold steps and some unreasonable situations that we become a part of knowingly or unknowingly??what really is the concept behind doing something u feel is not gud for u but u still want to do it??Maybe somehere down the line, the excitement or curiosity or in some cases, the feel of winning through the worst or braving it all gets u to do some things which u shud not have done,speaking practically.Like every second person among smokers says that he smoked first time to get the feel of controlling his life,rather to cut it down,on logical terms. But,who cares?? nobody for nothing really matters till u r happy with the way u r living,be it being happy or be it dooming every single day of ur life ,only if u please to do so.So, the point to be noted is that it is not always that u think reasonably and take an action, say u can't always measure the pros and cons of a situation and then act.Somewhere ,some time,things take shapes on their own, leaving u awestruck and dumb and there u are left trying to figure out why u did that particular thing or not and other such weird things that start taking a toll on you. And that is when u feel that u have been losing ur self esteem and self control and you start thinking as hard as u can,preparing to resist the change u feel in urself,getting rid of the creepy feelings of remorse and regret that grip u tight ,figuring out ways to be the real urself- focussed, practical and sensible.But ,i think that somwhere,somethings and some situations have been decided upon already,its just that u become a puppet acting as is expected out of u by those situations and u end up doing that only,to find urself under stress later on.But,do u realise that these situations only let u understand ur limits, be it ur emotional balance, ur patience, ur stress handling ability, ur tenacity, ur loyalty and many other things to count upon!!!
So, on a positive note, some things happen the way they want to and they may end up leaving u irritated and stressed out ,but this perception is what u need to change to rise above all odds....
Just do watever u feel like ,do think twice but dont ever think thrice,coz somwhere down the pipeline, u will be gaining from ur mistakes and u shud let them happen once in a while !!