Nothing but totally Strange!!!

Strange is the word which can describe what i am feeling right now!! Though what all is running in my mind is utter truth,but its just that the realisation and acknowledgement of it is making me think.Think whats there to this life we all live. Pretence ,money relationships ,truths,lies, love, hate,competition,fear and so many things that we thrive on,leading us to no purpose but a mean survival.And yet everyone of us is special.In their own ways.Was watching the movie Thank you sometime back,an all good movie with a very wise mesage. :-) But what struck me was the thought that it is so true that despite being aware of our precious most possessions and the people who make our world better anytime,we look for answers to our questions outside.Taken for granted,is what we make of those people and those things which keep our life moving even when everything and everybody else stop.But shouldnt you cherish such people and such memories which make you wipe your tears and feel protected,cared for and needed in times when this world seems to be a weird place.When in sorrow or in anguish,just remember the expressions,faces and the words which soothe you and bring you back to your smiles.And you will never forget those people,even if you are never in touch.I was just wondering about a sea of changes i have seen in the past year,not with me but also with people around me,connected,unconnected.Some changes make me feel happy,some jealous to be frank,some make me feel better,most make me feel nothing.But what has remained same is some people who have made me understand life at every step,some situations that have made me stronger every day,some tough times that have made me smile all along and ofcourse my belief.Strange is life,you grow upon your thoughts and vision by every moment,till a time comes when some of the biggest surprises fade away with a slight smile.Life is such a strange thing!!!

Before the sunrise!!

Its 3 am and am having a whale of time.Just done with "before the sunrise" .Vacation at home means idling around and having to do whatever i want to,being weird,rather being my own in whatever i wish to do,apart from the other maniac IT life that we all live.Amazing movie,must say.Loved every bit of it.Though the costumes were mundane,but the movie was so full of beautiful things.Love,oh i would want love to be like that.A freedom of expression,thoughts and yet that subtle "knowing" yet not asking.Especially liked the enactment at : 1) record playing booth when both the guy and the girl(Ok,the movie is about a french girl and an American guy,who accidentally meet in a train and decide to roam around vienna for a night,at random just when they know that there is some connection between them!) glance at each other in turns,and shy away just when they see the other one looking!1 :-) 2) At the restaurant where they act as if they are calling their friends and talk 2 each other,rather confess what they have liked about each other entire day.The thing which struck me and that is so true also,is that the subjects were so frank in talking about their dreams,fears and many other truths but they couldnt discuss that they liked each other so much,with ease.Guess, a fear as the girl confessed later,or maybe the typical "men first" feeling,or maybe the "is it the one??" syndrome in guy's mind,but whatever,the movie truly depicted what goes on in those two minds,when you meet someone really interesting,and are in the process of knowing and liking each other.Well,too many cooks spoil the broth and too many words too?? :-) Thats the reason they discovered love gradually.All those beautiful conversations they had,left me feeling could love be so free,so beautiful and so interesting? Where you just talk yourself out,anything except whats expected out of you to speak? Could you be discussing all what you are interested in rather than the same set of questions which remind you of your identity,your work or all what you do in everyday life? Isn't telling things which you value,adore or believe,things which have made a mark in your soul,your fears,desires,confessions a much more better way to introduce yourself when you meet for the first time?Love those philosophical and "soul searching" questions which make me feel out of this world,which make me think ahead of numbers,statistics,which make me hear sounds much different than those of a music player playing nearby,or look ahead of the hustle bustle while am sipping a coffee at some crowded place,or make me stare at a person or a thing and think something else ,so abstract yet so beautiful,or make me daydream and smile when what i pretend outside is so much different,or that feeling of butterflies in my stomach while am having a tough time trying to be serious apparently.Beautiful,isnt it? But you gotta have someone to understand all that.Someone of the same vision,looking in the same direction,that same sunrise,which you see that late evening,when the sun is supposedly bound to set.:-)
Well,of the movie,a perfect one to make you feel good,and make you feel in love for the time it plays. Liked some lines which i noted,to make a memory of them:
1)When the guy says that love is so selfish , the girl replies in turn,"But everything that we do in this world is about being loved or more than that!!"
So true!
2)When they are having this discussion ,she narrates a story about a lonely old guy who has been running around his career all life and she says"you know if one day god comes,he would not be in you,me but in the little space between us.If there is any kind of magic in this world,it
must be in attempt of understanding someone sharing something!!"

Loved this one,really!!I know that many conversations i had with so many people which might never be revisited,what shall remain of them always is " the attempt!!"
3)The guy is narrating some lines of a poem :"The years shall run like rabbits!!"

A worth watch..!!
:-)

The year and a half!! :-)

Nothing specific that i should write,yet i am getting lots of things on my mind, which are leaving me in a dilemma.The feeling of leaving behind,zillions of memories has already taken its place.Come nostalgia and moments that can be counted on fingers.Lots of places.People,wonderful and so good.Memories,galore, almost good,some bitter but the good ones overshadowing the former.Work,satisfying.Some experiences,"who cares",others "to be remembered ".:-) Smiles,tugged loads of them in my memories :-) Gym workouts,fun and happening at times. :-) Cycling-one of the best times, instilling that "free bird" feeling in me at times,on early mornings,dark,semi dark,bright and windy.Walks- the "my time".Meeting people- learnings(though the learnings are transient :-)) and yes,a belief,that gets stronger everytime.Friends- cant count, too many to leave behind. :-( Conversations at workplace-Cherished always.Treks- Best part,made me love adventure sports and made me discover the passion in me which i never knew,exists- that risk taking and the nature lover in me.Every trek has been so enriching and the gang, they just rock! :)Guitar- A different experience in itself!!Hurdles-who cares, they always remain.:-) Events- The years have been too eventful must say.Dance- Loved every part of it! :-) Moments with room mates-Unforgettable and cherished always,had the best times here!Lessons- Professional and personal,many but not implemented yet. :-) Confidence-Boost!Weekend masti-Gonna miss it big time! Trips and friends- To be missed big time!Shopping - :-) Non stop talking-Still Best at it!!

In all, i cherish the time i spent here and every minute memory is intact.Happy about it! So,its time i say adieu to the place and make way for new place, and mark an end to a long long journey and turn paths now.. :-) Hoping for the best!

Whiff of air!!

Sitting at a corner of a room,i am listening to songs randomly,picking them up from a collection of english songs.Thinking something,aah,many things at the same time.Assuring myself of some decisions am taking, trying to forget some experiences clouding the mind,and dreaming of a beautiful whiff of air blowing me away.Beautiful air, a pathway with green,red and yellow leaves,some wet,some dried, spread carelessly down the big trees. Dim street lights falling on the pathway ,brightening into a yellow dot as you look above and gaze continously at them.The sound of air and the dried leaves getting trampled by as you walk above the carpet of flowers and leaves spread to welcome you.Beautiful,isnt it? And nice music playing by.I am missing something,really. :-)

Lets Create memories!!!!

Just went to water filling station near my workplace.Chatted with the person who takes care of the water cooler and asked about the unavailibility of cold water,as always.At times,i feel the need to communicate to somebody unknown,somebody outside my world,just to make me feel connected to everything around me,to make me feel going on,to make me feeel living rather than surviving.Just noticed the poster of a smiling handsome guy with his family,on the CCD coffee machine,for the 10th time i guess. Whats so good about the poster that catches attention?Happiness and contentment in his smile.Happiness, is it just what shows on your face,or is it what reflects in your personality?At times,i feel so much like a clay model. Sea of emotions running by,make me smile at an instant and frown at the other.Make me blabber and utter so many things at the same time.Making me nervous and fumbling for words at the times when communicating clearly is so much important.Overexcited at simplest of things at times,even when i know i am being so silly,and smiling at it later to be making fool of myself. :-)
Flawed? Everyone is,but i presume it to be a part of a happy "me".No grudges,nothing clouding your mind at the end of the day is such a light phenomenon.Break your head twice,thrice or millions of times over something pestering you,but when you sleep,you should sleep a dead man.After all,who knows 10 years later,which chair you hold, a CEO,an enterpreneur or an idle person.Uncertainties claim time .Yes,they do.But what you shall cherish, some years later,and you still feel pride about,are called "Memories". Bet it.Memories,you make them every moment of your life.Memories,which take forms of faces,events,calendar dates,that "not so often" smile,places and those tears which well up ,out of nowhere.Create happiness,and memories follow.Create sadness,anger or hate,and memories follow again.The Key is to have short term memory loss for the negative ones and make place for those that deserve to be a part of your world.Say yes to life and people who make you smile and create memories,which you know shall stay with you forever.Forgive more and regret less.Smile and make others smile twice.Compliment people as much as you can and one odd day,when you are low,you will realise how a sweet compliment restored your confidence and will power.Believe in yourself,and believe in others too.Make mistakes and try not thinking about their ill effects for a while.Stand up and run when you are expected to walk.Look up at the sky when you get to experience a scenic view.Feel lucky and blessed to be getting lots of air,sunlight and warmth.And you will realise that you have been surrounded by Memories...!!!!

An Instant!!!!

An instant it takes to turn the page,

an instant to turn a smile into a rage.

An instant to turn a frown into the sweetest blush ever,

an instant to know you need to be there,forever.

A blink of an eye to see through those eyes,

an instant it takes and no sooner than that,a tear dries.

An instant to dream the biggest dream,

few moments to make memories which made your eyes gleam.

An instant and you know you're gone,lost and mad,

and moments later,to know that it turned out to be rather bad.

But an instant later, faith restores,

coz theres so much in life's stores.

Enough to make you cry,smile and wonder when is it enough,

enough to make you try it all,green patches and terrains rocky and rough.

Mother!!!

“You are my shadow,the one at my side all times,
Singing for me since ages,the sweet lullabies and the nursery rhymes.
You make me feel am a star but what you dont know is that you're my blue sky,
On top of world or sinking in sorrow,i love to find you always standing by.
Love you mother,i just wish i could be somewhat like you,
an epitome of forgiveness,Love,care and feelings so true.
Love you mom,Happy mothers day!
May god bless me with you in all my births, i can just pray.”

The well being!!

Fitness- Is it about those wonder curves,those six pack abs or a perfect physique? Or is it about a consciousness that you need to be doing something good to your body, on and off. I never knew that i would love adventure sports and trekking so much before i tried all.I never knew i could cycle all the way 20 kms non stop on a close to rickety cycle and enjoy coffee and "jalebi" at a restaurant after the milestone. :-) I never knew i could enjoy abosutely,an hour of exhausting aerobics with almost similar music every alternate day and turn out being friends with some amazing ladies,feel confident to be working up on stepper combos and be smiling at the dance steps and expressions of the wonderful trainer in the special "Dance sessions" every saturday.Not being regular is another story ofcourse. :-) And yep, those rare evenings when i visit the gym,courtesy my waking up late and missing the morning time, where the young crowd and tempo is at max and you feel great to be in such a place!!;-) I never knew i could enjoy the ride back from gym in the same rickety cycle, and love my favourite lane,surrounded by beautiful trees,so much that i just look up and nowhere else while driving across the same.And ofcourse the adventure activities back there in my workplace,each one of which resulted in beautiful memories and a certain peace and tranquility that i could never have experienced so easily.And the cliffs and the rocks, and doing weird things like walking on a narrow lane,valley on one side,and getting a scolding from my friends,frequent trekkers,for risking my life,in an instant.Those innumerable photography sessions on seeing every scenic view,a beautiful tree,a big rock,signs and stretches,and being the photographer in reurn for every photo of mine getting clicked alone..!!Wonderful times,must say! And yes, the experience of walkin and climbing in Moon light(suggested by our group leader),with all torches off,on a night trek,listening to animals and birds' voice echoing in the valley was an experience i would remember everytime i will think of a trek.And the shrieks of groups mimicking lion's roar,reciprocated by similar shouts from some other corners.And the food together with limited resources at a small pretty old house,with innocent people,and the bonfire and lots of ghost stories being narrated there.Unable to sleep in the temple,afraid of ghosts,feeling cold and bitten by mosquitoes and what not, i wonder i could have such moments again,as discomfort added much more to the adventure trips.I recall everything,every detail as i write down a precise of the adventure experiences i became a part of here.And the valley crossing, an amazing experience, when you turn your head down,in middle of valley,stuck by a rope, looking at expanse, and a fear mixed with awe which makes you feel just so great.And the local buses,superpacked and the struggle to get seated in them, returning home tired,torn and exhausted and the picassa link exhanges and a series of mails the next day.Oh,i have started missing the fun already.

And talking of it,the badminton sessions in my society, roomies,cousin and his friends,have been so good and enjoyable.
So, arent they a part of the fitness plan? Yes,they do result in fitness and well being,bringing a sense of peace and health with unmatched memories.

and am here again!!!

Theres something which keeps reminding me that am needed here,on the blog to pen down atleast something,even if nobody reads.:-) Yep,its too tough to find readers these days,so the pause! I dont even know what to write but theres something i wish to convey,to speak up.Bored.Slowed down.Looking back,on and off. Faded views. Distorted images.Want to live up some of them.A long way.Really a long one.Whats ahead? Some news,but not big enough to keep me engrossed.Guess when we find happiness so much in even smallest of things,the bigger things too don' t matter.If something i am wishing materializes,good,if it doesn't,for better.Sick of few things.Few things that are helpless.Whats taking me right now is the feeling of home !:) But lies ahead many challenges too.And of course a long lovely breakkk..:) But lots of goodbyes. So many faces that will never become a part of my days,everyday.So many cherishes conversations,that will fade away like the smoke.Friends, amazing moments with them,trips,movies,wonderful times that will turn into a smile whenever thought of. And many more memories,some worth remembering,some just like that.Some confusing situations and some fights in office.:-) But yes,i will miss Pune a lot. The times and situations here gave me an attitude which made me realise that life isnt easy,and i have learned to be happy with whatever i have,and whatever,i get be it good,bad or better.Guess life takes you places and makes you meet people,everything with a purpose.