Look Back...

Lot of hovering around, now back to my space..:)
I have been surfing FB like mad, putting on statuses frequently, checking my gmail account time and again, for the umpteenth time. A kid at times, i seek assurances at points where at the same time,i find my ways out, alone, feeling more brave.Especially, now that i am out of the cosy, rosy comfort of a place you have been staying since long and trust the people for not misguiding you(with paths ofcourse..Lol), i feel a battle won everytime i get myself to discover a place, or a landmark, or be it the way to office. Small things mean a lot when you know what you put for them to be in place. Though subdued at times, i feel best when i am with the people who know me, where i can be real me, cracking jokes, laughing is a big hit all the time.And in the new place,becoming the giggling gag is not so easy..Lol... so its kind of difficult holding back at times when i feel i could have cracked a great PJ.. :)
Met two classmates today who are in the same office, they were almost the same as in college, chilled, talking nonsense just for the fun, the discussion abt bikes n all...I kept silent, the gap of so many years makes you feel strange meeting people you knew once...And a thought just crossed my mind...Am i the same as i was 2 years back? Lot of changes.But how could they manage the same attitude? I think you need to outgrow your attitude with time and places.Anyways, we discussed the general "whos where and doing what" stuff and after a while, i realised there had been a change.Change in way their lives are moving now, as of all around us..
Thats when i felt that all these things are transient- friends, people, fun,smiles.What is persistent is your desire to live, your desire to reach your satisfaction levels and the urge to find yourself....