For ladies out there!! =) =)

My attempts at portraying a 16 year old girl's heart when it comes to crushes..:-)

"She has been holding onto something since sometime. In true terms,shes clinging onto a ghost.The short lived memory she remembers of the encounter with him,when she almost fell in love with him, the fun loving streak in him added to his handsome looks that made her believe he was the Raj who would come running to her,and thus will materialize happily, the dreams and life anew,with the title track of "DDLJ" and beats of shehnai,making her to shed some happy tears of mixed emotions.But,who would have known,that her visualisations are a mirage,and her Raj is still far,making out his way to reach her,accidentally,incidentally or intentionally,sometime sooner or later.But, the getting over part is always tough,and she had been having her share of that now."He" was somewhere distant,unaware,uninterested and inactive while she bubbled all the time with her frantic efforts to catch up with life.How much she wanted to be in touch with him ,only she knew.A ray of hope of a miracle happening and people getting together accidentally,on her mind, was what she lived for at some moments.She,all the time knew she was being silly but she wanted to be silly and enjoy the feeling.She wanted to feel the madness,the craziness and the stupor which made her feel like a 16 year old. She prayed to god,cribbed to friends about "Him",dreamt of him at times,thought of miracles happening and a broad smile crossed her face everytime she thought of him.When at times her mind hovered over her weak heart and all the soft corners seemed stiffened,she wondered whether he really deserved it?Did he and will he ever know that shes brimming with thoughts of him?Will he get the cues that will never ever be thrown by her deliberately? Will he ever try to know her and think about her? She knew the answers, he would not even give it a thought,leave aside trying to know her.She knew and was confident that there was no hope.But, he had already made her crazy.For a time till she found a new crush.And he will be gone, from her thoughts and dreams, a role reversal happening,when she would realise that she isnt getting any better clinging onto stupid memories,which never existed and will never do.
When a new crush she will develop will sweep her off her feet, then she will be off "him".She wont be feeling the same madness anymore,no deep thoughts like before.She wont be swaying like a wind,but will settle like a drop of water on a rose petal, shining bright and beautiful.She will let life around her blossom...

The fall will go,and the spring will arrive...Seasons change,so do feelings and emotions,but what stays is the heart and "You" and your Raj might be somewhere near, about to reach you and if he already is with you,it cant get better...:-P