Dawn or dusk?

Sometimes it happens that you feel so happy a moment and a moment later,however hard you try,some random thoughts clutter your mind and you feel worse than you ever had since ages.Somehow,you start feeling your under confident,worthless and pessimistic side taking a toll on the half lit lamp of hope you carry with you all the time.Your heart gets shorter thinking all those things which you shouldnt- the depressing things which make you feel you are unwanted,not liked,not loved/uncared for and just another creature who will fade away one day without ever making a mark on anybody's life around you.You stop feeling like the son/daughter of a proud parent,you stop feeling that love ever exists,the trust on relations breaks for those moments,and many thoughts later, a thought saying "who cares? or how does it matter ?"prevails.Those times really give you a different edge to life,helping you explore the other perspective,making you more observant and see life and realities unmasked for a change.Every relation,every companionship and all things near and dear seem like some obligations that you follow as a matter of duty.And you keep wondering what where and whether pure love exists? Pure love,where its not about giving and taking,where silence speaks louder than words,where care and concern weigh much more over some confessions,true or fake,where a look says it all,where you end up feeling worse even with the tiniest misunderstandings,and where it doesnt matter,where and who you are to the one who cares.Love of parents,siblings,partner,a friend,mentor,or a stranger passing by? Cant be categorised.But the one you remember at such times or the one who makes you smile and brings you back from the depression steals the show.