Mind,The culprit..:-)

Why do u race so fast?Cant you just stop working the moment i give in to your stupid wishes?Cant you just win over the silly heart just when you have to and stop cribbing later?Or why dont you let me have my way just when i come upto the conclusion that yes,it will be heart this time?Stop,you are still making me nuts.You make me think,expect,imagine and at times feel,what all it takes to be in pain/happiness.I wonder at times if you work the same way as her mind,or his mind or their mind for that matter.Then why are they so calm and poised while am turbulent inside?Why is there no visible line of trouble,panic on their foreheads,why is their state of mind so composed and focussed while i have trouble concentrating.Why do you make me smile at moments when the best thing to do that time is sleep/curse myself for being so out of place?Is it me giving away to something i dont owe?My thoughts and their randomness.Or somebody around getting on my mind.I wish not the latter,as i have trouble figuring it out.They say you lose heart to someone,but even then,you are still there in me,my dear mind.Then why do you stop working and stop helping me reconcile with truths,rather you cheat me up with your traps which are nothing but a way to make me experience defeat,of my wishes over you,and the heart.Why do you always hold me up just when its time to loose free,or why do you chase me as soon as you finally see that i have flied away from your cage,just to see that it has got dark outside and i again need a home,thats your cage.Mind you,i have learned your games well and its just that i dont speak up or act.Yeah,i do have fears which will fade away one fine day,till then i am learning your traps and finding ways out of almost all of them.Good job done from your side,and just waiting for my turn.:-)

Just some silly ones!!!

One of my favourite passtimes is changing statuses on Facebook.Those one liners come up from nowhere and make way for my favourite statuses and at times leave me wondering of my ability to come upto such complex conclusions.
Some of them are already banging in my head:
#1.
Loosen up the strings,before that new shoe starts hurting you,
Why do you always end up making the worst bargain ,even when you try so few!!!
#2.
They say,you should try even if you fail,
But why dont they send for someone,while alone,you fret and wail.
#3.
Failures are lessons,not mistakes,
but i wonder do they ever increase your stakes??
#4
I forget everything,except the simple thought that i need to forget you,
Its like ,on the lush ground where i stand today,how can i forbid myself from seeing the sky above,so blue.
#5.
I tried my best to make you win,but now the game is all yours,
to leave it silently without making a noise,or to change its course.

#6.
If you feel your silence makes a mark,you better forget it,
because those who are meant to hear,wil never do so,i bet it.

#7.
When it comes to giving/taking chances,believe in the sixth sense,
If you wish so,the present doesnt always becomes the past tense.


And lots more to continue shortly....:-)

A Great start of the week..

Beautiful day today.Rainy and pleasant weather,pleasant things happening all day long.Some surprises and happiness hidden almost in every small thing that happened today.At times,you do not need big reasons to be happy.And thanks to the day,i am happy over some really small things,that brought big smiles.Evening was all the more beautiful,especially the way back home from an early off from office.Beautiful orange silver clouds adorned the sky while i listened to my favourite numbers,lost in some things and smiles came on their own.Gazing at clouds were never that beautiful as today,except once at a look below from above in a flight journey at night.The orange hues and the grey clouds along with a festive puja outside teh society,created the so called festive spirit.And it felt great praying in the evening today.Wow,wish all days could be the same.And my brother called up for a raksha bandhan wish and asked me to choose a gift for myself.Nice surprise and made me feel really good.:-) At times,you do not need an uplift when you see such brightness around.And all your sadness vanishes like it never existed.You start loving life instantly and everything around.I carry one more very special and sweet memory of the day with me which was transient but nice.:-)Tomorrows is a holiday and thats making me elated.
Thanks to the almighty !!You really make me understand that there is so much to life that you cant be feeling lost when you have so much to gain and bring me up from gloom just when i start feeling lost!! :-)

Revenge :-)

Came up with some really strange but interesting lines somehow.Thought of words like "attitude" and "lovelorn" and this came up and is sounding cool and funny to me .:-)

"You came this morning and you will be going soon,
out of my mind,before its noon.
Your footsteps did sound like music as you came,
but as you go,every step you take makes me more lame.
Dont worry as it will make me sad,and sombre just for a while,
Moist are the eyes today,but they will soon twist into a smile.
I will camouflage no sooner,in the blink of an eye,
while you stay at the door,waving that last bye.
You may or may not be thinking vaguely,"lets give it a chance",
while i might have already revived from the trance.
I may have a soft corner,but am too good at being a stone,
while you feel you'l fooled me,i might have left you sombre and blown."

Wishes-wishes-wishes!!!!

I was at one of my most peaceful times today.Silently worked through the day, with an unusual dullness in my behaviour and expressions.Bored or feeling overstressed or the fact that i odnt like the way things work at office at times?? One of these.Or maybe something in me wanted to stop.The day i dont speak or smile much,its strange that almost everyone asks why i am not in my usual leg pulling,kidding and lively mood ? and people at such times make me tick again by not letting me go in that typical "shell" which makes me observe,evaluate and analyze situations which are basically mountains made out of moles.Dont know,maybe somebody up there develops cancerian moods so vividly and strangely that at times i feel like i over think some things and give thought to some of the most neglected aspects.:-) Want to discuss life and philosphy at the moment.Want to smile,laugh and make someone laugh along with me.Want to go out and feel the sky and the wind blowing by.Want to wake up whole night and enjoy silence and serenity the mysterious night carries.So many things cluttering up my mind.:-)Want to play guitar,hear guitar, want to feel being "wooed" :-p.Wish to see my world from above,the sky.Wish to go to CCD.Wish to dance,and shriek to the maximum volume..:-P.Wish to ride a bike and wish to cook and eat something really delicious.Wish to be in rain,see the snow which is impossible.:-p
Wish to be somewhere outside India for a change? Am i wishing too much or sky is the limit?Am i daydreaming or its the night thats so beautiful?Am i crazy or my real self..:-p? Am i expecting too much or dreaming the right way :-P as there is big difference between expectations and dreams :-) Am i right or am i insane?An insomniac faking as a daydreamer or a child at heart with a sparkling heart which never stops dreaming ..ahem..:-D
Whatever,wishes galore,make me explore..
the world around and up there..
wish to sing a different song today,
something to mark the day..
like "O lord,give me a day with heart and no mind",
and lots of memories later,to rewind..:-)

Just me and Now..

Everytime i feel like writing,something stops me.For a moment,some strange thoughts make their way and make me think "let some thoughts be veiled,dont write or who cares whether what you are thinking right now should make way to your page?"and i let it go.I let go of the urge to write and pen down a vague thought that settles in my heart and mind for a while,makes me feel lost for sometime before i shrug it off my shoulders like the dew which adorns you,back home after an evening walk.Nights are the perfect time to think all that you can and all that you never imagine,you could think , notice and recollect.Memories of the day,week passed,a flash back of past events,some good,some bad bring smiles on your face and at times tears,of longingness,rememberance, and a sudden wish to listen to and see some faces that give meaning to your life in some or other way every single day. 3 a.m. Balcony or a peek through the window, a look at the trees, buildings lit up with different shades of blue,white and yellow floresence,the peace taking you to a new world,the moon adorning every single thing you look at,the beautiful moon light in the darkness has its own enigmatic way of bringing life to every other thing that appears dull.Just yesterday i was reading Linda Goodman,and was amazed to discover the accuracy of the description she used to describe my zodiac sign.Typical cancerian, is best in his/her moods and at his/her emotional side,under moonlight,she says.So true yet surprising that it never occured to me that the reason of my racing mind at nights is the hyperactive reaction cancerians show towards moonlight. :-) The weekend has been fast but i adore the late nights,alone,with the questions that i ask myself,and the answers that i come upto to support them and my doubts and action items,lots of faces,the present, my future and so on.:-) Cancerians think a lot,must say! Read some other zodiac characteristics and found out that the predictions there too are so accurate.Feeling sleepy.Tomorrow is the killing day of week,Monnndaayy..:-)

Loving the way life is moving on,slow,no strings attached,work keeping me busy,freedom and peace taking my side,sleeps accompanied by dreams,some silent wishes and some surprises and some changes awaited!