Fill the spaces!

How do you fill the spaces,just when you realize that you have been too cruel to someone,showing your "true" side to that someone,with the bitter remarks and "no-good" things pouring out from the idiotic anger zone of your mind,which just wakes up at the wrong times and shuts up when it really needs to act.Just when you realize that logic has no sense,because it always has two sides,your side and my side.And My side always weighs more,no matter what.Ego,is it ego? Yes,it ruins the aftermath of your crisis,all the more.But still ego or no ego,how do you fill the spaces,the gap and the silence that pursues.Happens to me at times,when i feel sunk in the sea of remorse,putting a hand out to that someone,to save me from drowning,asking for forgiveness through some lame words.God,the one who invented "sorry" was a very wise man :-).Or for that matter,was he? Does sorry really means you are sorry,or you are just moving on because there are no ends to the problem you were fighting for??Is it enough that someone wins at the end,you or i?But is it really victory?I wonder.Well, i just wonder why do i end up feeling stupid after a fight,with a best friend,with those who love or with few people who don't matter.And for that matter,ending up lifting the ego  veil by asking for forgiveness later on,but realizing that has  wasted a lot of precious time.Wish there was an erase button,which could just erase,all thats on your mind,making way for a cleaner slate,so you may write memories with that innocent childhood chalk,wiping them everytime something spells wrong.Wish life could be so easy,a slate and a chalk is all what you have needed for a perfect today,tomorrow and day after.